Thoughts Before I Turn 31

After more than a month of trying to retrieve my blog email address today I am finally successful! It took me more than a month to get the email related to this cause I changed laptop on April 7 and  for some reason password from my google account did not sync to my new laptop. But as they say patience is a virtue, I spent all day trying every little tech tricks I know to get it and tada! Success! I actually have an excel sheet containing all my credentials but for some reason I lost it as well or should I say I failed to save it on my google drive :( I used to have great memory but as I get older I tend to depend on all online tools to save everything, you know you feel lazy to type your email and password every time you log in cause it's tiring. Or maybe because we now have tools to use to make things easy for us. The problem is, if we lost the device like laptop or phones we are left with nothing. In my case, I totally forgot about this email since I only use this for blog pu...

Yes, it's been a while since I visited the site and write, Busy? Nah! I  forgot the email address I used for this site  (sign of old age- it's been 9 years since I started this blog). But today I got lucky it suddenly pop-up on my mobile phone :) One of the first article I wrote here is about being single, well I am still single but I do have a fiance, we've been together now for five years. Being single and independent for a long time gives you that feeling of freedom that makes you too comfortable and not really thinking of getting married. Well after five years in a relationship I finally wanted to give it a try :) It may sound a little late for a woman like me but who cares! There's no age limit nor age qualification for you to get married. Though our female body clock may say otherwise but getting married should not be base on a person's age because each and everyone of us has a choice. No person can tell us when to get married, the onl...

       Many of us wanted to have enough savings for the future but there are times that no matter how much we try we still end spending all money we have specially now that daily commodities increasing daily but our salary remains the same. I based from my own experience opened savings account over the past years but end up closing it because I used it somewhere else. Plus the fact that placing it inside banks right now doesn't pay that much. Food, house rent, clothes and everything around us seems to increase price each and even if we work overtime still we end up paying bigger taxes much bigger that the actual pay of our overtime funny but true.          On the other hand if you are not good enough in saving money probably you are good in doing something else. In my case since I am not good in saving money because if a friend or a family member needs it well I end up spending it with them and most recently the savi...

Good day! It's been so long since I last post a blog and I actually forgot my password for this blog. Well my mind forget it but my hand knows it very well that I don't even need to think about it. So here I am writing another blog talking to myself. I was just surprise to know that even if I am no longer active someone in the world wide web is still reading by blog specially the one I created before I turn 31 years old. I was thinking of posting this in my native language "Filipino" but I don't want to be selfish with others who is not fluent or even familiar with my language. I am not really planning to write anything I simply can't sleep after battling with my mobile provider the worst in the Philippines oh well all 3 carriers gave worst customer service so who cares! I am not really a writer so I really don't know how to start this but let me do it this way. Now it's been 5 years  since I wrote the blog before I turn 31 a lot ...

It's 2011 , new year, new life, new adventures and new experience to learn. Year 2010 was such a great year to me, there's a lot of good things and not so good things that happened but at the end of it all I gained a lot of experience that I can use as stepping stones in the years to come. This year, I promise to focus in  improving myself inside out,enjoying simple things in life, pampering myself and doing what I want. I will spend more time discovering and exploring things around me. Spend more time with my loyal friends who stays with me in good times and bad times. This year I will also explore more of my native land and knowing my roots this way I will also know more about myself so see you around ;)

It's September whoah!!! The long Christmas celebration now starts here in the Philippines. You can now hear Christmas songs, see christmas decors and all other stuffs related to Christmas. I am more excited this year more than ever before why? It's simply beacuse I appreciate life now more than ever, before I used to think....it's Christmas again and I'm still "single" :D. But now, I don't care anymore. As one of the book I read says " it is better to be single than to marry the wrong guy". I'm happy now although I came from one more failed relationship I know God has a better plan as it is said in His word in my favorite verse Jeremiah 29:11 " For I know the plans I have for you plan to prosper you and not to harm you plan to give you hope and a good future". All my life I hold this promise and I would say that 100% He did what He said and He remain faithful though I have not been faithful. Thank YOU for the Christ...

--> Why worry if you can pray? I heard it before from a pastor he says it's always better to pray for something or someone instead of worrying it because worry can just gives you stress. But I guess it is really human nature that we worry a lot, yesterday I saw something online that made me really felt so bad and that's what I've been thinking all day. One side of my mind says don't worry about it trust what you feel, trust your heart. But the other side is shouting, no you should do this, you should do that and so on and so forth. I just go to work early instead because I can't sleep. I already forget about it until I got home. I want to go online again when I reach home but I decided to sleep, when I open my emails I saw an email which eases all my worries. My heart and my mind became peaceful once again, the pastor was right. If people will just learn to pray instead of worrying things, the world becomes a better ...

Been so busy for the past months and it's been a while since I last created a post, now trying to write again.I am such a moody writer, can't write if not in the mood and when I'm in the mood I don't want to stop. My mind has a lot to say, things that I've been thinking and meditating over the past few years of my life.Sometimes it makes me smile but most of the time it makes me cry, and as much as I would like to tell it in details I don't know right this moment what really makes me happy and contented. Did you ever wish you are somebody else and that you are not who you are?Have you ever felt that you have this or that or have you ever wish that you are in the shoes of a person you envied because he/she have the things you wish you have but she doesn't realize the importance of that? Sometimes I do feel it, or should I say most of the time I wish I am someone else.How can some people be so insensitive and waste the beautiful things that they have wh...

There are moments in our lives that things get out of control we wish to do something but things seems to be not going our way. Something saying its not right but we still do it anyway even we are aware that it's not right. That's when things becomes complicated, then we start complaining. We start feeling so down and complaining to God why he let it happened without realizing that its our own fault in the first place. When things get though we tend to put the blame to other people,situation and even God but we don't realize our own mistakes. When we have lots of worries it usually blocks our eyes with so much cloud. Its a cloud of fear,worry and shame of what we did but our first defense is to look for someone or something to blame except ourselves.But what should we do in times like this?Some do foolish things like going to vices like drugs, alcoholism and so on or even trying to commit suicide. But what do we really need to do especially in moments that we really ...

It's a very tiring weekend for me, my head is aching as well as my whole body because of my niece baptism.But it's a good thing too, I was able to attend church,the preachers sermon is very inspiring. As the theme of the day "New Season" all the things the speaker said was great.It refreshes my spirit and seems I want to do something else. But I have a lot of things to think about and consider, for now what I need is a complete rest as in body rest because I'm so exhausted physically.But I can say that my spirit is somewhat alive and I feel much better deep within.

Happiness....many people been searching for that it's a human's quest second to love.Some thinks that finding love leads to happiness. But does that mean that if you don't have a partner means you don't have love which means you won't and will never have happiness? Happiness for me is the way a person look into his or her life.it's not the absence or presence of someone special in your heart is the basis of that. It's how you look on the things around you.Count your blessings as they say and look around see for yourself how blessed you are for having the things you have right now. Don't look on the things you don't have. Soon you will find that happiness is inside the heart not in the presence of someone

Today is my 31st birthday, seems special but it's just ordinary day, no celebration, not even a greeting from a person I expected.But I'm still thankful, another year has come and hopefully more years will be coming. Just finished reading the book the Alchemist and realizes the things written by the author also applies to me.But like the main character I guess deep inside me though I know my personal legends my fear is bigger than what I thought. I will read this book again until I have enough courage to do what Santiago did.

Christmas eve is coming, for the Christian world it's the best time of the year.But what is the real meaning of Christmas?For some it's the gift or material things, for some it's the family being together, for some it's the gift of love. But what if you are alone and you don't have a family to call your own or friends are far away and you have no one to spend it but a lonely bed and some pillows or blanket? Tell me what you can say and what is Christmas for you.

There's time for everything,but as humans we tend to do things in our own way. It's our nature to do what we want, when we want it and how we want it. It's common to everyone and when things go wrong we get frustrated and blame ourselves.But there's nothing we could do no matter how sorry we felt because we already did it anyway. However there are times we try to do it religiously asking God's guidance. But even in prayers, we asked God to guide us in making major decisions in life,however we already have a pre - conceived answer to our prayers. That's why if things did not go on our way we complain to Him. Does God really answers our prayer?Yes he answers prayer but in different ways.God has three answers to our prayers. He says "Yes" if he knows that our prayer is his perfect will for us. He says "Wait" if it's good but time is still needed to prepare us for what we ask him. Lastly, he says "No" if it's really not good f...

Tell me your story and I will tell you my story. Tell me your dreams, I will tell you my dreams. Tell me your fears, I will also tell you my fears. Tell me the things that makes you happy, I will also tell you what makes me happy.. Tell me what makes your cry, I will tell you reasons why I also cried. Tell me the reason why you love, I will share mine though it might be sound odd. Tell me the reason why you can't give love. I will tell you reason why you should love. Tell me the reason why you are sad, I will tell you why you should be glad. Tell me the reason why you are mad I also get mad most of the time but that's the funny side of life

Please help me out! It's been quite a long time that I've been thinking about this maybe almost 5 years now, not so long? Well yeah 5 years is a long time but up to this moment I still can't decide on what to do about my career. Should I continue doing what I'm doing right now? Or should I go back to my previous job or profession? To give you an idea for the people who don’t know me personally as of today I'm a CSA or a customer service agent in an outsourcing company better known as call center. Been with this business for 5 years was able to adjust to a past face environment and graveyard shift. Been living as if I’m part of Edward’s family since I am awake at night and I sleep in the morning and I hate seeing the sun feels as if it will burn me. I’m use to this job that requires you to be a multi task person that’s why even if you are just sitting for 9 hours that’s 8 hours phone calls 1 hour break it felt like you’ve been in a marathon. The most exhausting...

--> Is this a choice or a destiny? Oh my! I’m turning 31 comes December 30, 2009 and I’m so single right this very moment. This will be the last year that I can see my age in the so called calendar. Why that is this calendar only contains 31 days? Well blame it to its maker, my body clock is also ticking I should conceive a child at least by age 30 as per my colleague so the child would be intelligent. But I’m turning 31 few days from now and I’m so damn single! How can I have a child then? Am I really worried about it? I guess I’m not, or should I worry about it? If I would assess myself I would say that I’m just starting to enjoy my life as single. I had so many things in the past that I had to do. Responsibility in Filipino culture so to say. I really did not enjoy any of my life’s stages be it in childhood, teenage years or being a young adult or young professional. But I won’t say I regret anything I’ve gone through or I’ve done in f...

A new day has come a new beginning, a new hope and a new challenge to face. It can be a bit discouraging at times, can sometimes make you cry or even gives you no reason to move on. But of all lifes challenges we should still be thankful that we woke up alive this morning with good health, with job and with our family and friends willing to shower us with love and care. We have a new opportunity to correct the mistakes we had in the past.Hoping we do it right this time,wishing and praying that it won't happen again.Or in case the same thing haapen we know how to face and handle it.