Thoughts Before I Turn 31

Been so busy for the past months and it's been a while since I last created a post, now trying to write again.I am such a moody writer, can't write if not in the mood and when I'm in the mood I don't want to stop. My mind has a lot to say, things that I've been thinking and meditating over the past few years of my life.Sometimes it makes me smile but most of the time it makes me cry, and as much as I would like to tell it in details I don't know right this moment what really makes me happy and contented. Did you ever wish you are somebody else and that you are not who you are?Have you ever felt that you have this or that or have you ever wish that you are in the shoes of a person you envied because he/she have the things you wish you have but she doesn't realize the importance of that? Sometimes I do feel it, or should I say most of the time I wish I am someone else.How can some people be so insensitive and waste the beautiful things that they have wh...

There are moments in our lives that things get out of control we wish to do something but things seems to be not going our way. Something saying its not right but we still do it anyway even we are aware that it's not right. That's when things becomes complicated, then we start complaining. We start feeling so down and complaining to God why he let it happened without realizing that its our own fault in the first place. When things get though we tend to put the blame to other people,situation and even God but we don't realize our own mistakes. When we have lots of worries it usually blocks our eyes with so much cloud. Its a cloud of fear,worry and shame of what we did but our first defense is to look for someone or something to blame except ourselves.But what should we do in times like this?Some do foolish things like going to vices like drugs, alcoholism and so on or even trying to commit suicide. But what do we really need to do especially in moments that we really ...

It's a very tiring weekend for me, my head is aching as well as my whole body because of my niece baptism.But it's a good thing too, I was able to attend church,the preachers sermon is very inspiring. As the theme of the day "New Season" all the things the speaker said was great.It refreshes my spirit and seems I want to do something else. But I have a lot of things to think about and consider, for now what I need is a complete rest as in body rest because I'm so exhausted physically.But I can say that my spirit is somewhat alive and I feel much better deep within.

Happiness....many people been searching for that it's a human's quest second to love.Some thinks that finding love leads to happiness. But does that mean that if you don't have a partner means you don't have love which means you won't and will never have happiness? Happiness for me is the way a person look into his or her life.it's not the absence or presence of someone special in your heart is the basis of that. It's how you look on the things around you.Count your blessings as they say and look around see for yourself how blessed you are for having the things you have right now. Don't look on the things you don't have. Soon you will find that happiness is inside the heart not in the presence of someone

Today is my 31st birthday, seems special but it's just ordinary day, no celebration, not even a greeting from a person I expected.But I'm still thankful, another year has come and hopefully more years will be coming. Just finished reading the book the Alchemist and realizes the things written by the author also applies to me.But like the main character I guess deep inside me though I know my personal legends my fear is bigger than what I thought. I will read this book again until I have enough courage to do what Santiago did.

Christmas eve is coming, for the Christian world it's the best time of the year.But what is the real meaning of Christmas?For some it's the gift or material things, for some it's the family being together, for some it's the gift of love. But what if you are alone and you don't have a family to call your own or friends are far away and you have no one to spend it but a lonely bed and some pillows or blanket? Tell me what you can say and what is Christmas for you.

There's time for everything,but as humans we tend to do things in our own way. It's our nature to do what we want, when we want it and how we want it. It's common to everyone and when things go wrong we get frustrated and blame ourselves.But there's nothing we could do no matter how sorry we felt because we already did it anyway. However there are times we try to do it religiously asking God's guidance. But even in prayers, we asked God to guide us in making major decisions in life,however we already have a pre - conceived answer to our prayers. That's why if things did not go on our way we complain to Him. Does God really answers our prayer?Yes he answers prayer but in different ways.God has three answers to our prayers. He says "Yes" if he knows that our prayer is his perfect will for us. He says "Wait" if it's good but time is still needed to prepare us for what we ask him. Lastly, he says "No" if it's really not good f...